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Jul 02

The Road to Perfection

One of the beautiful, dedicated, and inspiring challengers in my recent challenge group inspired this post.  While this isn’t directly about her or her question, she made me think a little more about what I have recently learned.

 

A little back story… I wasn’t necessarily popular in school, but I did have good self-esteem.  Not boastful, but nobody could make me feel bad about myself and I was strong with what I felt right. After I got married and had my children, my self-esteem was the lowest it had ever been.  In my mind I was the worst mother in the world, the worst wife, a lousy cook, a failure at keeping my house clean, way too fat, ugly, stupid… you name it, I thought it.  Ending my life was never a thought (thankfully), but I dreaded getting out of bed every morning, I dreaded being a failure all over again.  How did this happen?

 

A few months go by after I had my second child. I’m miserable with my life (everyone in my house was probably miserable too).  I hate how I look, I hate how I feel and I am totally sick of it.  I decide to take a stand and at least start to exercise to lose the weight. There sat Turbo Fire. I had for close to a year and there it sat collecting dust.  Believe me, it wasn’t easy.  My kids wake up early, so that meant I needed to wake up between 4:30 & 5:00AM to get my exercise in.  There were days I really wanted to stay in bed, but knew I had to change. After losing some weight with exercise and the help of Shakeology, I started feeling a little better about myself, but still had some self-esteem issues.  I really believe in the Beachbody products, their values, and their mission.  I wanted to help people lose weight and feel better about themselves.  I decided to become a Beachbody Coach.  I am not a personal trainer, I am not a nutritionist, I am not at my goal weight, and I do not eat healthy 100% of the time.  Now I have another problem… I am not perfect!  How am I going to help someone when I am not perfect myself?

 

This is where personal development came in.  One of the things that Beachbody highly recommends for coaches is reading and listening to personal development books daily.  This was the biggest turning point in my life.  My biggest take away is that I’m not perfect. In this life, I never will be and nobody else will be either.  Guess what… that’s okay!  I had it planted in my head that I had to be perfect at everything, everyday in order to be a good person, a good mother, a good wife, a good business owner etc.  It’s not easy to live up to the expectation of perfection.  I learned the most happy and successful people in the world work on themselves every day.  They work to be a little better and learn a little more.  They see the good in every situation and try to see the good in all people… including themselves.

 

Today I am still not the best cook in the world, I have a messy house, eat junk food sometimes, have some day I don’t feel like exercising, still have a couple pounds I could lose, and probably won’t win the #1 Mom award anytime soon, but I continue to work on ME daily.  I try not to dwell on what I deemed as a failure in the past.  We are human, we screw up.  The road to perfection is very depressing and lonely.  Don’t aim for perfection because you most certainly will fail. All we can do is strive every day to be a little better than we were yesterday.

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